shuddup shtoopid.
updates so far.... 
5/08/00-Pix-Yuumi and Anita C.
                      Kevin "Savage" H.

5/02/00-Pix-Lunch Time Crew
                      Yuumi Punch!!

4/16/00-Pix-Group pix added

4/13/00-Thoughts-extra thoughts

4/10/00-Pix-Rob's pix updated
           Rave- added in pic of Frank, Barb and me 

3/28/00-Rave (pix) - Popsikle

3/14/00-Comics-Spread Art (section re-vamping)

3/06/00-Pix-Kevin H, Rosalynn, Brad, Kim, Brian C.
               Pix-Micholette added in S.S.

2/14/00-Pix-Meatball in a Tigger suit. personal fav.!

2/06/2000-Pix- [wanna rave] mini section added

12/27/99-Pix-JYS (Junk Yard Speed) Crew

12/07/99-Pix-Rob D. (my bro!!)
               Secret Journal Updated...

10/27/99-Pix-Jackie F and Meatball head!
also Meatball head at the beach sick! =(

10/25/99-here's some pic i drew of me chewin 
on my glowstick. yea this was pretty much what 
it really looked like.
click here for the drawing!


well i haven't been messing with my web page for awhile. due to the fact that i didn't have time. and now its just stress. i just got a big burden off my shoulder. and that's school. school has ended on this day. and i am very glad that it happened. but now all i have to do is wait for summer school to happen. great. lots of stuff been going on. well i went to a rave last saturday. it sucked for me. i wasn't diggin' the vibes. and the stuff that happened. i dont really want to say or talk about it. but if you know me enough.. you already know what im exactly talking about.

the rave was located at maritime hall. spring fever 2000 was the name. the rave started off with some house in the main room. then some trance in the room below. alice deejay came to perform and that's when it got really good. and then when she got off.. that's when it got really bad. the music went bunk. i don't dig MODA's vibes. the first time i went to FTP (Funk Theory Productions) he was there. and he messed it all up for me, my friends and alot more. most poppers enjoyed it. well what wouldn't you enjoy if you popped some. but yea anyways i'll talk more about it later in the rave section. when i get some pics developed. 

recently i've been bored. stressed. and tired. i just have things on my mind i cant get off. things bugging me. i haven't had a good night sleep in about 4 days so far. same goes for dinner. i try to let loose the stress by kicking the crap out of things. yea sure it helps alittle... but other than that i just have one thing to ask...

have you ever just put so much time and effort into something.. and then just lose it in one day just like that.

sure there maybe hope... but its just the thought... im at that point... my mind is blazing with thoughts and memories waiting to be exiled. or should i cherish them for what they're worth. come on Kevers. i know your reading this. and i thank you for your advice... but should i just drop it like how you said... or wait and see what happens... and what if it does happen... will i go in delirium and go nuts the rest of my years..... i dont want it to happen.. and i know you dont want to see me like that. but just dropping it now just like that is too hard.. its just that i spent so much time.. thats the main reason.. i don't know anymore...  i'm going to go now... i feel bad just writing it here. bye people.

previous update was 05/08/00

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its funny how a person can spend so much time on something... but just lose it in a snap... very surprising indeed.
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the ones that used to be here,
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