11/12/99...
this
whole week was a weird week for me. pretty kickback week but a weird
week. lots of thoughts been floating in my mind. but i just dont
really wanna say. not for the public and for the people that i know
who come to my site. im not going raving this week. i dont think
i have my ride. i dont have my ticket anyways. its okay. i hope
its not the last homebase rave. actually i think im tired of raves.
raves eat up my money. sure i dont need the E. but its so damn fun.
i think im gonna retire from raving. after only around 8-9 events.
someone throw me some pennies.
uhm
what else is there to say... thursday i went to an e-party down
by richmond. it was pretty fun. the room was pitch dark and all
you could see were glowsticks. later on everyone left to go watch
pokemon the movie or something. today theres a party. but i cant
make it. damn.
im
stuck at home bored as hell. nothing to do but to stare at my walls.
look at my cheap stars on my ceiling. life is so dull now. if i
died tomorrow i dont think i would mind. i died twice almost.. 3rd
times a lucky charm. well now im sounding suicidal. thats not good.
i dont know whats up with me. i think its the E, but in a way i
dont think it is. E effects alot of people. it changes them. so
far i dont think it changed me.... yet. im bored. i wanna go out.
someone friggin take me out. im stuck in my house.
im
feeling down. im not as happy anymore. my boss even asked me where
my smile was. damn thats sad...
i
guess i'll just keep on blabbing till my fingers get tired. im at
home. its cold. its silent. i hear the fan in my computer whirl.
thats how silent it is. no ones online. everyones out having a blast.
im stuck at home. i dont even have a game console. i used to have
a playstation. but mike just had to take it back. he still has my
gameboy! damn i need that back. im tired from work today. i had
to take in around 4 big fridges and 5 stoves or washing machines.
those things aint light i'll tell you that. i got work tomorrow.
damn. i think i know why im so bummed out this week. too much work.
i worked the whole week but thursday. i hate it. shit. fudge. i
have something to tell someone but i dont have the balls to. dont
ask what that means. im too patient.
i
think im too nice when it comes to money. money aint a thing to
me anymore. well it never really was back then.. atleast not at
my age. money comes and go you know. if money makes someone
happy i'll go make them happy. nothing cheers me up then a nice
big smile from a good friend or any friend. but if your there to
rob me of my money, i'd hate on you for so long.
(you know who im talking about meatball head, that bastard SCALVINGER.
hehe Kevin H., i give you mad props for bitching at him when he
gave you back your jacket after a year, and i heard it had some
nasty crust stains on it!!). i never
knew he was that type of person. i never met a person as messed
up as he was. i thought he was buddy buddy with kev k.. he was always
with him. but i never knew they had that much internal funk. damn
thats sad. i cant believe i fell into his trap too. kev made it
all clear to me. he was nothing but a user. he had a job and he
couldn't even cash out his money. why work?i mean what the hell
you know? damn im pissed at myself. he broke my nice headphones
too. those things were like $50. and i gave him money like almost
everyday. almost a dollar a day. either in half a sandwich or just
a dollar bill. i think it added up to about $10 atleast. thats it
who want some dramatics?! im fired up.. i think im gonna go out
and take a walk. its like 9:00pm. i think i need to think about
some stuff. get things off my mind. i love holding long conversations.
not online but in person. i guess i'll be walking alone tonight...
and o yea meatball thanks on thursday for taking those stoggies
away from me. from now on.. everytime you see me have one.. a pack
or just in my mouth.. TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME!! unless im peakin
or if im still feeling my E. well, okay my fingers are pretty
tired now. im gonna go now. bye. i dont think im coming back here
until something really cool happens...
as
meatball head would say with her arms in a fight position...
"you want some dramatics?! huh huh??"
i
kicked a tree's ass after the rave on Saturday Night/ Sunday Morning.
and
Kevin H... i try not to sound too loony on my page. im just trying
to get people to laugh some how some way. you know.. were kewl like
that. yea bro were all related, a big fat family ring man.lets go
Mcdonalds in the morning someday and i'll treat ya to a hashbrown.
its on me.
i cant wait for you to bust out your can-o-payback
on my online friend noele. im trying to work on JYS too. im making
Rhythm Remedy Productions some banners. Jeese and Kevin seem to
like my banner so far. i think im getting a Dj pass. *JOY*
wow
this just keeps going and going... damn somebody stop me. this is
like the fattest update i've had in months. i love this!
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