was going through my room today. i found alot of junk. i tossed
alot of old dusty toys away. organized a couple of things and hung
my clothes in the closet. my rooms pretty messy. to me atleast.
but what i really wanted to talk about was something i noticed about
me... i keep some weird stuff in weird places in my room. for example:
today i found a shoe box underneath my desk. or next to my desk.
i was wondering what the hell was in there. so i took a peek. i
found letters. letters and cards. from way back in the days ever
since i was a little tike. i had cards from relatives. mostly birthday
cards. i have cards from ex-g's. those were pretty happy while i
read them. i have all these valentines day cards from middle school.
those got me thinking. i remember back then in middle school.. saying
a phrase like "i love you" had no meaning. now i just cant say that
to anyone unless they're just really really tight with me... like
all these brothers i got now. family baybee. but anyways..
i bet if the people who gave me those V-day cards gave me some this
V-day.. i bet i wouldn't find a i love you anywhere posted
on the card. i don't know.. im lost again.
well those cards from my ex-G's are pretty sappy. with "143" or
"always and forever". shit. we aint forever no more. sure we may
have had our share of fun and yea we did lots of things together.
but.. eCk.. i hate putting my feelings and emotions as text. its
just not the same. i cant exactly fully say it. i ust don't
know how. i think i'll go put this shoe box back. hoping to never
find it again. these letters and notes give me headaches and stress.
thinking back about how much time i spent. and now its just all
wasted. we don't even talk anymore. or we barely talk. o well those
were the happy days. now im living a cruddy school life. crunk-e
classes with a bunked out book. life sucks. wait until i win the
lottery. yea that's more like it.
there meatball head. E don't make me sToOpiD or sLo. i was just
tired today. i had my sleep and all. its probably because i didn't
eat my breakfast. usually i would have a cup of milk. some bread.
or cereal if i have enough time. but today i only had my milk. yea
so don't trip. gimme my tape wo-manG! you can keep those glow in
the dark nails. i found both at the end of Quest. i think when i
was flooring it i found them. i think i was flooring on top of those
okay im gonna end this with a pretty interesting quote i found.
i like it alot... it goes alittle something like this..
"Bad People stab you in the Back... but
Good people stab you in-front..."
like i like.
Lyrics that are being played...
& Miss Jane- It's a Fine Day
a fine day people love the windows lookin at house just for a short
while they look at the clouds.. they look at the skys.. they walk
by the grass they look at the skys.... na na na na na lee da dee
dah la la la la..... its going to be a fine night tonight, its going
to be a fine day tonight its going to be a fine day tonight its
going to be a fine night tonight..."
typed it as fast as she could sing it. REALLY!
check out this tunes i dig...
Ayla- Liebe (ATB Remix)
Dj Jean- The Launch (Hyper Mix)
update was 11/14/99
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